I've told you before , don’t come running back to me when you get treated the exact same way you treated me . I'm sorry I have to be this mean towards you . Yes it's true , you know me so well that you know I can easily fall for all the sweet words you say to me . But no , not this time , I don't think it's working anymore . I apologise for being so cold blooded towards you , but I just get so frustrated every time my mind picture vividly how you used to treat me , you walked all over me , you caused me so much heartache in the past . I gave you enough love and enough changes but you threw it all back in my face . Ironic much ? One moment we share are full of laughter , then it becomes hatred between each other .
Pheww , I feel better now .
Happy December errbody :) My favourite month of the year , be nice to me alright ? Oh and guess what ? 25 more days left and it's Christmas already , YEAY ! I know you're excited too :D
Tell me right now baby
Aiman ; Avada kadavra ! Jom ah main harry potter dgn aku
Estee ; Oblivate ! *poof poof*
Aiman ; *evade* Stuperfy ! Hah skrng kau dh pengsan!
Estee ; Sectumsempraaaa ! Eee kau byk darah skrang !
Aiman ; *ada orang dtng heal* vulnera sanentur x5 Haha, aku dah okay. Crucio! (Torture kau gila gila)
Estee ; *Pegi mampus la kau* x 10 ! Okay kau dah mati
Aiman ; Nono, expelliarmus! (Wand kau jatuh) avada kadavra!! (Kau mati)
Estee ; Aku elak curse tu . Impedimenta ! Kau jatuh and tak leh gerak .
Aiman ; Hahaha, mana ada spell tuu. Nama dia petrificus totalus lah :P Yg draco buat dkt harry dlm train kn?
Estee ; Enhorgio , kau jadi gemuk , HEHEHE
Aiman ; Denrsaugeo! Gigi kau besar, hehe
I swear he is the craziest best friend ever .
Watched Rapunzel 3D with Aiman yesterday at Curve . But I really didn't see any 3D effect -__- Okay who cares , the movie was so romantic , and the songs wasnt that annoying , and it's very Disney like , I lovee ! On a lighter note , I don't think I'm gonna watch any movies with Aiman anymore , HAHAHA , sumpah bising gila nak mati in the cinema . And when we wanted to cross the road to Ikano , he made me laugh and I was standing in the middle of the road laughing to myself , I could've get bang by a car okay Aiman Zulkifar ? Haha , but day well spent ;)
Uncle Lawrence is back from Bangkok tomorrow noon , YEAY ! And please please bring me to Bangkok with you like you said few months back , Malaysia veli boring laaa ;(
I'm so happy now because of some reasons , hehe he always make me smile :)
Hey Hazim , I think I wanna marry you ! ♥
If you're ready , like I'm ready
Talking to Mai Najihah always makes me feel better , thank you girl ♥ :)
You belong with me
Hello hello readers :)Went to OU with Rauf Yusof and Hazirah Yusof yesterday , had tea at Delicious , hoho that Hazirah Yusof like shy shy cat only :) Then we went to Secret Recipe to visit Epul and Nas . Aww I tell you , them boys are so sweet , I feel so protected when I'm with them , thanks guys , for making me feel better yesterday :) Waited for Abang Rahman Yusof , then he sent me home .
Today , met up with the Alam Megah dudes , Marvin and Vicky . We went Sunway Pyramid and watched Harry Potter . Maybe I'll be watching it again this Saturday , maybe . It's a great movie anyway . After movie , went to Secret Recipe again to check out them boys , Nas and Epul .
I'm so tired now , gonna watch my korean drama in a bit , chow ♥
Let's runaway
ez says:
that time like we not serious oni
estee says:
yeah , do u consider me as ur ex girlf ?
i dunno to consider u as my ex boyf or not man
HAHAHA
ez says:
uhh
good question
HAHAHAHA
HAHAHA , you ass ! Thanks for making me happy man ! Anyway , we were rating girls on msn , then the lowest mark he gave was around 2 , and we both hate that girl , HAHAH ;p Okay so bad . Then this girl , he rate 0 , EEEYERR so bad :p
OKAY CANNOT STOP LAUGHING NOW , imma continue msn-ing with Ezrul Mehzas !
We'll make the great escape
This guy above is somehow always there for you if you ring him , and I'm so glad to have a friend like him .I miss falling in love , and I want a hug right now :'(
Thinking of you
Estee ; I go with reeta . Vicky say he got gps to pick you up :p
Mich ; Oh ok chun :) then i'll see you there tomorrow kayh =] i miss you princess :)
Aww this bby girl :D Having breakfast with Mich , Reeta , Vicky and Marvin Yong Yee Mun tomorrow morning , I'm looking forward and so excited about it *running in circles* :D
p/s ; Amirah Sufian , if you're reading this , Hakim Sufian is texting me now , ohoho be jealous ;p
We were just kids in love
Hello there readers .School's out , scream and shout ! Okay I miss watching High School Musical now ! So fuck yeah , school's over , finally . I passed by my class , 4 Amanah today . I loved this class , it brought back so many memories , sad , happy , everything . I had the best classmates , though many people thinks that first class people are always " poyo " , " bajet " and stuffs , but hey , you don't know us so keep your dirty mouth shut !
It's open day today and I got third in class . I think mummy and daddy are happy , well I'm glad they are . But since I got a 53 for Biology , mum told me that I should start studying during December and not to go out so frequently anymore , sigh :(
I can't believe I'm gonna be form 5 in just a few months , and Marvin just reminded me that SPM is gonna be in 12 months , wtf :s But I already have a list of things to do after SPM already , hehe . And I hope the boys will take their license as soon as possible so we wouldnt have to worry about transport if we want to go to anywhere , right Epul , Nas , Rauf , Afiq ? :) :) :)
Ohh , yesterday I finished reading Burned Alive . I had goosebumps after reading the last page , I don't why I just feel very sympathy for Souad , but she have her own happy family in the end . And I wonder , is life actually like a fairytale , a story always with a happy ending ? I doubt so . Went to Kinokuniya yesterday and bought The Wedding and Where Rainbows End . I've been craving to read Where Rainbows End since May , I'll go to every bookstore with Hilmi to find the book but we couldn't find it and I finally got it now .
It's 15th November , so Happy 3 Months Anniversary , love . I couldn't deny that we are drifting apart and the more I thought about it , the more I noticed how wide the gap between us had become . I'm really tired answering questions from almost all my pals , asking the same question over and over again " How's you and Hazim ? " , " You ngan Hazim okay ? " , " Hazim okay tak with you ? " , " Is he treating you okay " I'm just so sick and tired that all I can manage is faking a smile and say " Okay " , when the truth is , we are not really that okay . But of course , all couples go through ups and downs , I just really hope we will get better soon . I'm just so helpless and hopeless when it comes to relationships , and that is one thing I really hate about myself . I don't think so you'll read my blog , but please know that I love you , and I hope we can make it through .
You got me begging , begging , baby please dont go .
You and me
Hello there readers.
Am now in my room , the lights are off , and I'm lying on my bed with my earphones , ahh best feeling in the world . But to be honest , moments like these are when million of things run in my mind , and I tend to be a little " emo " , heh yes . I've receive all my results already , so here it is
BM - 68
BI - 79
BC - 61
MM - 71
SEJ - 75
MORAL - 80
PHYSICS - 71
ADD MATHS - 70
CHEMISTRY - 64
BIOLOGY - 53
Open day is on Monday , I am dead . I'm a little disappointed at my English and Malay language , and of course Mathematics . But oh well , last minute studies , guess I should be satisfied about my marks already .
2010 is finally coming to an end . I hated this year , I hate those continuous heartbreak that I gave myself , I hate those " crying myself to sleep " nights , and those " crying at school " days , omg embarrassing . But there are happy moments too . For now , I'm just looking forward to Christmas and I hope santa will make my wish come true this year .
Gah don't know how to say this . It's like there's this stone in my heart and I just want to remove it right now . I believe , everything happens for a reason . But this 'thing' that is happening now , I just can't find a good 'reason' for it . Geddit geddit ? Everyone in this world wants to be loved right , so do I . Are there people in this world who takes other people feelings as their favourite toy ? Im reading this book called " Burned Alive " , and there's this part , it's when the girl gave the boy she loves her virginity because the boy said he loves her , but turned out it was lie . If I see this boy , I am so going to kick you balls . And I always question myself , don't I deserve to be loved , too ? Sigh .
Right now , I miss my superboy .
Crazy for you
" Dia sihat kat sane ? ;) "
" Die chat ... dia rindu you la "
Why'd you tell me that Azli ? Sigh .
Gotta gotta gotta get your back boy
Hiya readers :DI would do anything to get a time machine and redo everything we did yesterday , it was superb . I went to Reeta's crib at 9 yesterday , chilled in her room and took a cab to Sunway . We went there early cause we thought we could meet up with Vicky and Marvin , but they came late . So the both of us had breakfast at Starbucks . Then I saw Rauf entering the entrance , so yeah 3 of us waited them at Starbucks .
After meeting up with everybody , 16 of us enter the cinema and watched Life as we know it . Vicky treated me popcorns , yeay ;) Fara sat behind me , and beside her was Ami and Afiq . Had our popcorn fights as usual , and there was this scene , when the boy and girl are leaving each other , very sad obviously , Fara kicked my head from behind , and I started laughing , like " HAHAHAHAHA " , okay awkward .
After movies , we went to Pizza Hut . Met up with Marvin and Vicky's friend , and we had lunch together . Then I saw Ami , Amalin , Fara at the other table . So I joined them . Then Epul , Nas , Rauf , Afiq , Shahir and Feisal came , so we went skating together :D Shahir , Izzudin , Khairul and Feisal didnt join though .
The fun begins in the skating rink , even though it was just going rounds and rounds and rounds for 2 hours . We pushed each other and I fell a couple of times , but it's okay . Amalin and Epul just can't be separated ya know , they're always holding each other hands when they're skating . It was really cute , my heart smiled seeing them like this :') I like it when Afiq bawa skating , you just have to hold his hand , and woooooshhh , he'll bring you go round the skating rink with lighting speed :D
Took a bus home , I slept at Fara's waist in the bus , so tired :/
We went to McD to grab a drink and Uncle Yusof sent me , Mich and Rabie home . The atmosphere in the car was very scary . I don't have a good relationship with Rauf's father because I only tumpang-ed him twice only , and when I go to his house , he's always not around . Then Mich started tickling me and I wanted to laugh , but tahan je la kan :p
Thank you people for making a very happy girl yesterday , sayang semua sampai mati (:
Turn it up , mash it up
I clicked the " See Friendship " thing at Mich's page . I was home alone that time and I laughed to myself as I read back our conversations , this girl really knows how to make me happy :p
But when she cried this morning , I felt so useless , because I suck in pujuk-ing people , yes I'm very bad at that , all I can do is hug her and tell everything is gonna be alright . But it's okay , I'll break his kneecaps when I see him k ? :)
I had a great talk with mummy at dinner just now . Maybe I should follow her advice sometimes , I know mummy I've been a really bad daughter this year , I'll be a better one next year , ok ? ;)
Andddd I hope she'll let me go out this wednesday , I mean like exams are over man !
Today I came out late from school because we were discussing about our English marks . K I'm just gonna shutup about my English marks , seriously disappointed . Mr. Ananda was like , " Estee you did VERY bad " . Omg he used to say " Excellent as usual " :'(
So when I went out the school , I spotted mum's car . Deepak and Taufique was talking to my mum . And I was like ,
Estee ; Ei ei what are you boys doing ?
Taufique ; Hitting on your mum
Deepak ; Ya laa , your mum is so hot okay !
Mummy ; Okay good luck for your SPM okay ?
Deepak ; Auntie I want to see you again
Taufique ; Let's go to her house again
Estee ; K BYE BOYS !
Anyway , Reeta is throwing a Deepavali party this Saturday . And she's inviting Vicky and Marvin too . HEHEHE , can't wait to see them , miss you guys ! We're gonna party like , like it's 2012 . Okay , that song is stuck in my head now . Bye readers (:
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock of the door has changed
Auntie Audrey ; Do you have any novel that I can borrow ? Got some romance wan la
Estee ; I have P.S. I love you , I'll give it to you tomorrow
People who are close to me should be shock that I'm actually lending that book to other people . Yeah , it was a suprise gift from Emi . I didn't allow anyone to read the book , not even my closest friend . And when I read the book , I make sure that I don't make any lines at the middle of the book . I just , treasure the book very much .
I have no idea why I lend it to Auntie Audrey . I mean like , whats the point right still holding on to the past . I know I've let Emi go long long time ago , but it's just this book that made me feel very special to Emi . Can you imagine someone with financial problem but still insist to buy you your favourite novel because that someone knows you desperately wants to read it . To me , it's uber sweet . Hehe but whatever , I'm just proud of myself that I've moved on already :)
Emiiiiiiii ! The promises we made was total bullshit right ? Haha , but still thanks for making me a happy girl with the lame and stupid jokes and teka teki . Haha tak leh lupe sial :D
11 pm .
Mi ; I kat luar rumah you ni , keluar skrang .
Estee ; *passes something*
Mi ; Ehh ! Dari tadi tak mandi lagi ?
Estee ; Taaak :p
NOVEMBER ALREADY . Omg , time passes by so fast . Anyway , November wish will be for me and Hazim to have a better relationship . I know I havent been a good girlfriend , heh Im a total sucker in relationships . But I'm still trying my best , so yeah forgive me for my wrong doings baby ? :'(
You know I love you from the bottom of my heart .
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