Never over you

Hi Z , I am so angry with you right now . How could you do this ? How could you do this to my ex boyfriend , YOUR BESTFRIEND ? Seriously . You want me to be your girlfriend when I already have a boyfriend , and you said we couple secretly so my ex boyfriend wouldn't be heart broken about it . What bullshit is this ? Heh saw your true colours . As much as I hate rejecting people , I'm glad I said no to you .


Okay enough of that . It's 30th December , so ....





HAPPY BIRTHDAY EZRUL MEHZAS BIN MD ELHAM


Aww this horny bastard is finally 17 , woohooo ! We've been through so many things together and I'm glad we're very close . Thanks for all the horny jokes and always being there for me . Remember we used to play truth or dare through MSN ? And late night webcams , you'll sing and play me a song with your guitar . And you wrote a song about me , omg how sweet is that ? I love you ass , stay healthy always okay ? If you need someone to talk to , I'm just a phone call away :)

Ever ever after

Next year , I won't be seeing the Form 5's this year that frequent anymore since they're out of school already . I'm so gonna miss you guys ! You people are the best senior ever , more to my brother from another mother . I'm never going to forget the memories we shared , and I promise you guys this . I love you all so much ! Sincerely from the bottom of my heart :) *hugs*


Oh Chun How said he saw me at Petaling Street today but was to shy to say " Hi " , ngeeehh that handsome boy !

For you my only one

Going out with my sister wasn't that bad afterall O:)


Anyway , went back from KL around 5 yesterday and in the Monorail and Putra was full of Malaysia supporters . I swear the crowd was crazy . Didn't watch the match yesterday but Weng Han said Indons are bangsat . I have no idea if that's Malay , English , Chinese or Cantonese language .


Oh as you can see , I changed my spectacles already . Trying something different this time . I didn't really picked it properly since I wear contacts when I go out . Specs is just for school wear , so yeah , hihi . I cant wait to see my baby girls :D


Oh and Hazim too .

I'm dreaming of a white chritsmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :D


May this wonderful celebration bring joy , peace , love , health and wealth to you and your family . I've always love Christmas , sadly my wish didn't came true this year . Thank you for all the presents and wishes , I really appreciate it :)


Epul ; You sambut krismas tak ? :-)
Estee ; I sambut la , wish i cepat
Epul ; Yeaah ! merry christmas wong sou teng :-D
Estee ; Hohoho , terima kasih bro !
Epul ; HO HO HO :-P





HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD AFIQ :)


The best picture I could find of both of us , heh sad :/ May all your dreams and wishes come true boy :)


5 more days till New Year's , I better work on my New Year's Resolution now , goodnight .

Stay here forever

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD HAZIM SAYANG :)


When I think of you , I can't help smiling , knowing that you've completed me somehow . You're always going to be the very best part of me . I hope you'll have a blast on your birthday , thanks for calling me just now sayang , I always love talking to you :) You're a hero and a gentleman , you're kind and honest , and you are someone I ever truly loved . I love you baby , and I always will ♥


Skype video called with Vicky , Izuddin and Aiman . We played Lat Ta Li Lat , Ji Gu Pang through webcam , I laughed so hard :p


Santa, can you hear me ?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all I want just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I’ll be waiting here
Santa that’s my only wish this year

I'm the one who wants be with you

He's the sweetest guy on earth and I'm so proud he's mine :)

Everything breaks my heart

They're just tooooooooooooooooooooooo awesome :)


Hey I went Mid Valley yesterday and watched My Soul To Take . I swear to God that movie was fucken scary , screamed like shit , and I kept using my popcorn to cover my eyes , the sound was loud and the cinema was so damn cold , I am so not watching that movie anymore .


Oh and I went to Reeta's house today , and walked alone to Mich's house under the rain , omg -_- Their house is damn far , and the rain gave no mercy to me , I reached Mich's place and catched a cold already . Slept at Mich's house and felt better .


I slept at 8 pm yesterday night and woke up at 10 am this morning , HAHA , BEST GILA NAK MATI , I didnt even yawn today , I think 14 hours of sleep is really more than enough for me . I woke up and realize I have 3 good night messages from my friends , aww they are just too awesome ! :')


Okay I'm blank now , challo :D


P/s ; Did you realize it's full moon tonight ?

I'll be there for you

" And maybe it's true, I'm falling for you. Maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me, too. So maybe I'm wrong, it's all in my head, but maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said."

Fly like a what ?

HIIIII :D Mhmm , so yesterday I went Sunway with ze gang , Nareeta , Amalin , Ami , Hzyh , Nas , Afiq , Epul , Rauf , Izzuddin and Shahir . It was awesomeezzzzz ! We watched Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah , there was some part that were quite scary . I sat between Epul and Afiq . Since Epul sat nearer to Amalin , I sat closer to Afiq . Sorry Afiq for grabbing your arm so hard during the scary parts !


After movie , we went to Wendy's for lunch . Walked around and went to Redbox and screamed our lungs out . We went crazy , dancing and singing together so loudly in the karaoke room . I liked it when we sang the song Gee by SNSD , cause we don't know the lyrics , all we know was the " GEE GEE GEE GEE BABY BABY BABY " , yeap thats all ;p But it was uber fun !


When we came out from Redbox , we saw the bus coming already , and the distance between Redbox and the bus station is quite far . So our athelic Afiq Azman Alias ran and tahan the bus for us , woohooo ! Superman on the move ! When we reached KJ , Rauf's dad sent me home . This was even scarier than last time because I was the only one who tumpang his dad .


Went to some Korean Restaurant with mummy today to have lunch , food was okay :) Oh and , I participated this contest at Facebook . Read my Facebook page for more information . I need to get the most 'likes' to win . As I was asking help Varmen ....




I miss you Varmen ! Don't wan't to see me already is it ? Oh and , I chatted with Edzrul , yeah the guy I went rock climbing with last year , woah what a suprise he still remembers me :D


Happy 4 Months sayang , I love you forever :)

No more looking back

" Kenape you hantar me 10 of those messages ? Are you spamming ? :p "
" Nope, because you are the 9 of my favourite person in the world :) "


You know sometimes you'll receive those chain letters saying " Send this message to 10 of you favourite person or your .... will die . If you receive the message back your ... will come true . " yeah that kind of thing . I don't believe it you know , but back when I was Form 2 , I was pretty naive so I send messages like those to 10 of my favourite person . I sent it to one of my friend and that friend of mine send me 10 of those messages back , and as you can see the conversation I wrote above , he said because I'm his only favourite person in the world . Haha , pretty sweet huh ? Oh well , everything so different now . It's life we're talking about right ?



Oh yes baby , I'm addicted to the game above , I can sit infront of my laptop and play for hours , HAHAH , lifeless much ?


I'm suppose to go for some KL History Walk today , boriiiiiiiiiiiiiing , so plan cancelled . Had dinner with dearest family just now , after dinner went to Popo's house to chill . I went to Pasar Malam and saw so many familiar faces , said 'Hi' and all , haha I miss my school mates and friends around KJ . I miss those Indian Boys from 4F , HAHA , hey even though they're not really smart but they're nice to hang around okay ? I often see them at Pasar Malam during 6 -7 pm , and they'll to be like " HIIII AMOIIII " . I guess the best time is when I spoke Tamil with them *ehem pro much ? ;p* , and they answered me in Tamil back but I have absolutely no idea what they're talking about , haha awkwarddddd .


It's 3am already and I wonder what are my baby girls and boys doing .
I guess I shall hit the sack now since I'm off to KLCC tomorrow , hehe ciao .

Come take ma hand

Estee ; Nas kau free skrang ?

Nas ; Rindu kau doh ;( Yes free , why ?

Oh my my my my my , I miss you too boy ! :(

Show me watchu got

Honestly , what have I done to you ? Did I backstab you ? No . Did I kill your relatives ? No . Did I set your house on fire ? No . SO WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU USING MY SECRETS AS A TOPIC TO GOSSIP ? All this while , I trusted you and you've been telling my secrets to everyone , nice friend(s) I have there . When you had a hard time getting over your crush , I helped you . I send you goodnight texts to make sure you won't cry before you sleep . I fought with my bestfriend because of YOU , and you made me look like a complete fool . Think you're so pure ? I'll fucking burn your veil .

Yes anyone terase ?

The world has somehow shifted

I love you both , until my last breath , I promise :)

They just wanna see me fall

Estee ; Good night :)
Epul ; Haha asal ni ?


Estee ; Good night :)
Afiq ; Aik pehal tiba2 ni ? Salah send ke ni ? :-o
Estee ; Taaak , aku wish kau good nite la
Afiq ; Oh haha . Tak pernah pernah . Hehe . Goodnight sayang ;-)


Okay I barely wish my friends good night , me such a bad friend :(
It's 1 am already and I have Taekwondo grading at 8 am later , great just great . Oh and guess what ? Kim Hyun Joong , YES THAT HANDSOME MAN , Ji Hoo from BOF , Baek Seung Jo from Playful Kiss , is freaking coming to Malaysia , and I'm gonna see him later at Pavillion , OHH FUCK YEAH , dream came true , omg :')


I said I'd never let you go , and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it

She's finally 8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Hazirah Yusof :)




I love you small girl ♥

River flows in you

I just read Bal's blog , I really didn't knew he has a blog all this while . And oh my God , I can't believe my own eyes when I read his blog , it's so ... heartbreaking . Seriously Bal , it's not worth it , I have no idea how many times I have to tell you this , but please , she really isn't worth it . For now , just focus on your SPM and don't do anything stupid already . After SPM , I promise , we'll hang out and have fun , ok ? You better work hard so me , you and Deepak will be able to become pilots next time , oh yeah baybeh ! You know I'll always have your back right , Ahmad Iqbal :)

I've been eating like a machine lately , and my thighs are getting really gigantic , oh no , I guess I have to start joining mummy to go jogging in the morning already , but I always see Puan Tay Pek Choo at the park , haih Y_Y

I REALLY CAN'T WAIT TO FINISH SPM MAN .

Just tell me everything's alright

I've told you before , don’t come running back to me when you get treated the exact same way you treated me . I'm sorry I have to be this mean towards you . Yes it's true , you know me so well that you know I can easily fall for all the sweet words you say to me . But no , not this time , I don't think it's working anymore . I apologise for being so cold blooded towards you , but I just get so frustrated every time my mind picture vividly how you used to treat me , you walked all over me , you caused me so much heartache in the past . I gave you enough love and enough changes but you threw it all back in my face . Ironic much ? One moment we share are full of laughter , then it becomes hatred between each other .

Pheww , I feel better now .
Happy December errbody :) My favourite month of the year , be nice to me alright ? Oh and guess what ? 25 more days left and it's Christmas already , YEAY ! I know you're excited too :D

Take me away to January

I WANT 2010 TO END AS SOON AS POSSIBLE ,
WORST . YEAR . EVER .

Tell me right now baby

Aiman ; Avada kadavra ! Jom ah main harry potter dgn aku
Estee ; Oblivate ! *poof poof*
Aiman ; *evade* Stuperfy ! Hah skrng kau dh pengsan!
Estee ; Sectumsempraaaa ! Eee kau byk darah skrang !
Aiman ; *ada orang dtng heal* vulnera sanentur x5 Haha, aku dah okay. Crucio! (Torture kau gila gila)
Estee ; *Pegi mampus la kau* x 10 ! Okay kau dah mati
Aiman ; Nono, expelliarmus! (Wand kau jatuh) avada kadavra!! (Kau mati)
Estee ; Aku elak curse tu . Impedimenta ! Kau jatuh and tak leh gerak .
Aiman ; Hahaha, mana ada spell tuu. Nama dia petrificus totalus lah :P Yg draco buat dkt harry dlm train kn?
Estee ; Enhorgio , kau jadi gemuk , HEHEHE
Aiman ; Denrsaugeo! Gigi kau besar, hehe


I swear he is the craziest best friend ever .


Watched Rapunzel 3D with Aiman yesterday at Curve . But I really didn't see any 3D effect -__- Okay who cares , the movie was so romantic , and the songs wasnt that annoying , and it's very Disney like , I lovee ! On a lighter note , I don't think I'm gonna watch any movies with Aiman anymore , HAHAHA , sumpah bising gila nak mati in the cinema . And when we wanted to cross the road to Ikano , he made me laugh and I was standing in the middle of the road laughing to myself , I could've get bang by a car okay Aiman Zulkifar ? Haha , but day well spent ;)


Uncle Lawrence is back from Bangkok tomorrow noon , YEAY ! And please please bring me to Bangkok with you like you said few months back , Malaysia veli boring laaa ;(


I'm so happy now because of some reasons , hehe he always make me smile :)
Hey Hazim , I think I wanna marry you ! ♥

-___-

OH MY FUCK KAU TAKDE BOLA KE APE SIAL? You can go die now, NOW, please and thank you.

If you're ready , like I'm ready

Talking to Mai Najihah always makes me feel better , thank you girl ♥ :)

You belong with me

Hello hello readers :)


Went to OU with Rauf Yusof and Hazirah Yusof yesterday , had tea at Delicious , hoho that Hazirah Yusof like shy shy cat only :) Then we went to Secret Recipe to visit Epul and Nas . Aww I tell you , them boys are so sweet , I feel so protected when I'm with them , thanks guys , for making me feel better yesterday :) Waited for Abang Rahman Yusof , then he sent me home .


Today , met up with the Alam Megah dudes , Marvin and Vicky . We went Sunway Pyramid and watched Harry Potter . Maybe I'll be watching it again this Saturday , maybe . It's a great movie anyway . After movie , went to Secret Recipe again to check out them boys , Nas and Epul .


I'm so tired now , gonna watch my korean drama in a bit , chow ♥

Let's runaway

ez says:
that time like we not serious oni


estee says:
yeah , do u consider me as ur ex girlf ?
i dunno to consider u as my ex boyf or not man
HAHAHA


ez says:
uhh
good question
HAHAHAHA


HAHAHA , you ass ! Thanks for making me happy man ! Anyway , we were rating girls on msn , then the lowest mark he gave was around 2 , and we both hate that girl , HAHAH ;p Okay so bad . Then this girl , he rate 0 , EEEYERR so bad :p


OKAY CANNOT STOP LAUGHING NOW , imma continue msn-ing with Ezrul Mehzas !

Say what ?

HAHAHAHA , seriously ? :p

We'll make the great escape

This guy above is somehow always there for you if you ring him , and I'm so glad to have a friend like him .


I miss falling in love , and I want a hug right now :'(

Thinking of you

Estee ; I go with reeta . Vicky say he got gps to pick you up :p
Mich ; Oh ok chun :) then i'll see you there tomorrow kayh =] i miss you princess :)


Aww this bby girl :D Having breakfast with Mich , Reeta , Vicky and Marvin Yong Yee Mun tomorrow morning , I'm looking forward and so excited about it *running in circles* :D


p/s ; Amirah Sufian , if you're reading this , Hakim Sufian is texting me now , ohoho be jealous ;p

We were just kids in love

Hello there readers .


School's out , scream and shout ! Okay I miss watching High School Musical now ! So fuck yeah , school's over , finally . I passed by my class , 4 Amanah today . I loved this class , it brought back so many memories , sad , happy , everything . I had the best classmates , though many people thinks that first class people are always " poyo " , " bajet " and stuffs , but hey , you don't know us so keep your dirty mouth shut !


It's open day today and I got third in class . I think mummy and daddy are happy , well I'm glad they are . But since I got a 53 for Biology , mum told me that I should start studying during December and not to go out so frequently anymore , sigh :(


I can't believe I'm gonna be form 5 in just a few months , and Marvin just reminded me that SPM is gonna be in 12 months , wtf :s But I already have a list of things to do after SPM already , hehe . And I hope the boys will take their license as soon as possible so we wouldnt have to worry about transport if we want to go to anywhere , right Epul , Nas , Rauf , Afiq ? :) :) :)


Ohh , yesterday I finished reading Burned Alive . I had goosebumps after reading the last page , I don't why I just feel very sympathy for Souad , but she have her own happy family in the end . And I wonder , is life actually like a fairytale , a story always with a happy ending ? I doubt so . Went to Kinokuniya yesterday and bought The Wedding and Where Rainbows End . I've been craving to read Where Rainbows End since May , I'll go to every bookstore with Hilmi to find the book but we couldn't find it and I finally got it now .


It's 15th November , so Happy 3 Months Anniversary , love . I couldn't deny that we are drifting apart and the more I thought about it , the more I noticed how wide the gap between us had become . I'm really tired answering questions from almost all my pals , asking the same question over and over again " How's you and Hazim ? " , " You ngan Hazim okay ? " , " Hazim okay tak with you ? " , " Is he treating you okay " I'm just so sick and tired that all I can manage is faking a smile and say " Okay " , when the truth is , we are not really that okay . But of course , all couples go through ups and downs , I just really hope we will get better soon . I'm just so helpless and hopeless when it comes to relationships , and that is one thing I really hate about myself . I don't think so you'll read my blog , but please know that I love you , and I hope we can make it through .


You got me begging , begging , baby please dont go .

You and me

Hello there readers.


Am now in my room , the lights are off , and I'm lying on my bed with my earphones , ahh best feeling in the world . But to be honest , moments like these are when million of things run in my mind , and I tend to be a little " emo " , heh yes . I've receive all my results already , so here it is


BM - 68
BI - 79
BC - 61
MM - 71
SEJ - 75
MORAL - 80
PHYSICS - 71
ADD MATHS - 70
CHEMISTRY - 64
BIOLOGY - 53


Open day is on Monday , I am dead . I'm a little disappointed at my English and Malay language , and of course Mathematics . But oh well , last minute studies , guess I should be satisfied about my marks already .


2010 is finally coming to an end . I hated this year , I hate those continuous heartbreak that I gave myself , I hate those " crying myself to sleep " nights , and those " crying at school " days , omg embarrassing . But there are happy moments too . For now , I'm just looking forward to Christmas and I hope santa will make my wish come true this year .


Gah don't know how to say this . It's like there's this stone in my heart and I just want to remove it right now . I believe , everything happens for a reason . But this 'thing' that is happening now , I just can't find a good 'reason' for it . Geddit geddit ? Everyone in this world wants to be loved right , so do I . Are there people in this world who takes other people feelings as their favourite toy ? Im reading this book called " Burned Alive " , and there's this part , it's when the girl gave the boy she loves her virginity because the boy said he loves her , but turned out it was lie . If I see this boy , I am so going to kick you balls . And I always question myself , don't I deserve to be loved , too ? Sigh .


Right now , I miss my superboy .

Crazy for you

" Dia sihat kat sane ? ;) "
" Die chat ... dia rindu you la "


Why'd you tell me that Azli ? Sigh .

Gotta gotta gotta get your back boy

Hiya readers :D


I would do anything to get a time machine and redo everything we did yesterday , it was superb . I went to Reeta's crib at 9 yesterday , chilled in her room and took a cab to Sunway . We went there early cause we thought we could meet up with Vicky and Marvin , but they came late . So the both of us had breakfast at Starbucks . Then I saw Rauf entering the entrance , so yeah 3 of us waited them at Starbucks .


After meeting up with everybody , 16 of us enter the cinema and watched Life as we know it . Vicky treated me popcorns , yeay ;) Fara sat behind me , and beside her was Ami and Afiq . Had our popcorn fights as usual , and there was this scene , when the boy and girl are leaving each other , very sad obviously , Fara kicked my head from behind , and I started laughing , like " HAHAHAHAHA " , okay awkward .


After movies , we went to Pizza Hut . Met up with Marvin and Vicky's friend , and we had lunch together . Then I saw Ami , Amalin , Fara at the other table . So I joined them . Then Epul , Nas , Rauf , Afiq , Shahir and Feisal came , so we went skating together :D Shahir , Izzudin , Khairul and Feisal didnt join though .


The fun begins in the skating rink , even though it was just going rounds and rounds and rounds for 2 hours . We pushed each other and I fell a couple of times , but it's okay . Amalin and Epul just can't be separated ya know , they're always holding each other hands when they're skating . It was really cute , my heart smiled seeing them like this :') I like it when Afiq bawa skating , you just have to hold his hand , and woooooshhh , he'll bring you go round the skating rink with lighting speed :D


Took a bus home , I slept at Fara's waist in the bus , so tired :/
We went to McD to grab a drink and Uncle Yusof sent me , Mich and Rabie home . The atmosphere in the car was very scary . I don't have a good relationship with Rauf's father because I only tumpang-ed him twice only , and when I go to his house , he's always not around . Then Mich started tickling me and I wanted to laugh , but tahan je la kan :p


Thank you people for making a very happy girl yesterday , sayang semua sampai mati (:

Turn it up , mash it up

I clicked the " See Friendship " thing at Mich's page . I was home alone that time and I laughed to myself as I read back our conversations , this girl really knows how to make me happy :p


But when she cried this morning , I felt so useless , because I suck in pujuk-ing people , yes I'm very bad at that , all I can do is hug her and tell everything is gonna be alright . But it's okay , I'll break his kneecaps when I see him k ? :)


I had a great talk with mummy at dinner just now . Maybe I should follow her advice sometimes , I know mummy I've been a really bad daughter this year , I'll be a better one next year , ok ? ;)
Andddd I hope she'll let me go out this wednesday , I mean like exams are over man !


Today I came out late from school because we were discussing about our English marks . K I'm just gonna shutup about my English marks , seriously disappointed . Mr. Ananda was like , " Estee you did VERY bad " . Omg he used to say " Excellent as usual " :'(
So when I went out the school , I spotted mum's car . Deepak and Taufique was talking to my mum . And I was like ,


Estee ; Ei ei what are you boys doing ?
Taufique ; Hitting on your mum
Deepak ; Ya laa , your mum is so hot okay !
Mummy ; Okay good luck for your SPM okay ?
Deepak ; Auntie I want to see you again
Taufique ; Let's go to her house again
Estee ; K BYE BOYS !


Anyway , Reeta is throwing a Deepavali party this Saturday . And she's inviting Vicky and Marvin too . HEHEHE , can't wait to see them , miss you guys ! We're gonna party like , like it's 2012 . Okay , that song is stuck in my head now . Bye readers (:

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock of the door has changed

Auntie Audrey ; Do you have any novel that I can borrow ? Got some romance wan la
Estee ; I have P.S. I love you , I'll give it to you tomorrow


People who are close to me should be shock that I'm actually lending that book to other people . Yeah , it was a suprise gift from Emi . I didn't allow anyone to read the book , not even my closest friend . And when I read the book , I make sure that I don't make any lines at the middle of the book . I just , treasure the book very much .


I have no idea why I lend it to Auntie Audrey . I mean like , whats the point right still holding on to the past . I know I've let Emi go long long time ago , but it's just this book that made me feel very special to Emi . Can you imagine someone with financial problem but still insist to buy you your favourite novel because that someone knows you desperately wants to read it . To me , it's uber sweet . Hehe but whatever , I'm just proud of myself that I've moved on already :)


Emiiiiiiii ! The promises we made was total bullshit right ? Haha , but still thanks for making me a happy girl with the lame and stupid jokes and teka teki . Haha tak leh lupe sial :D


11 pm .
Mi ; I kat luar rumah you ni , keluar skrang .
Estee ; *passes something*
Mi ; Ehh ! Dari tadi tak mandi lagi ?
Estee ; Taaak :p


NOVEMBER ALREADY . Omg , time passes by so fast . Anyway , November wish will be for me and Hazim to have a better relationship . I know I havent been a good girlfriend , heh Im a total sucker in relationships . But I'm still trying my best , so yeah forgive me for my wrong doings baby ? :'(
You know I love you from the bottom of my heart .

I'm just really confused right now

Mich ; Im gona sleep now, then wake up at 4 then do a chemistry crash course ;) triple C master plan B) chiow ♥
Estee ; Wtf ? Asshole :p sweet dreams ! MUAAAH :-* <-- goodnight kiss :)


Thank you bby girl for sending me a goodnight message every night to make sure that I'll be able to sleep , love you :)


Mich and Reeta came over . We talked with each other for like 6 hours , about everything and anything . And yeah , I'm actually kinda confused right now , wait , I am VERY CONFUSE , I don't know if I should follow their advice or not . They think that I should " B.U. " with youknowwho . But ... Haih :'(


We talked about last year , and I miss the times after PMR :(
Last year , me , Mich and Mas used to be like the " twins " and also the " 1 Malaysia " gang , when AimanZ bully anyone of us , the other two will belasah AimanZ .


I have Physics 3 and Chemistry 3 paper left . For History paper 1 , I got 30/40 , which is quite satisfying , and 68 for BM , damn everyone else got like 70 and above , I feel so left out now >:(


Can't wait for exams to be over , and I'll have all the time in the world to watch my korean dramas and admiring my sexy korean boyfriend(s) . Hehe , thats all for now , BYE :D

If you don't love me let me go

Hello readers , I had a great time at Prefect's Hi-Tea yesterday . Went to Elton's house at around 12.30 pm . Then Elton's father sent me , Elton , Hambali and Wai Shaun to Crystal Crown Hotel . And the fun begins :D


Tasha arrived around 2 . I went to the hotel lobby to pick her . When I saw her , I run to her with my 3 inch heels and hugged her so tightly , omg I miss you girl ! ♥


We were talking and laughing non - stop with Ezrul , Deepak , Taufique , Hafiz and all . The food was okay , I ate a lot because I kept reminding myself that I paid RM 65 for this . Then there's this game , they said you have to make up a group of 3 people , and it's like a 1 Malaysia thing . So me , Kughen and Hafiz teamed up . Haha , it was kinda awkward because there's 5 group and only our group are from mixed gender . Anyway , they gave us 4 pieces of white cloth , and we have to use those white cloth to design a costume kind of thing . I was the model , and Hafiz and Kughen made me a " Superwoman nak kahwin pakai tudung " . Omg I look horrible when I'm in a "tudung" ! But I had fun , nice job Kughen and Hafiz :D


We took a lot of pictures yesterday , yay :D Then I followed Ezrul home . While waiting for his dad to come , we said goodbye and hugged everyone , it felt good , we were like a big family (: When Ezrul's dad came , his brother came along too . So me , Deepak , Taufique and Ezrul had to sit behind , and it's a Kancil . Torture man , especially when it comes to a turn , everyone will just push themselves to the right or left . But that wasnt that bad , I remembered when I was form 2 , 8 of us were in one car to Tasha's birthday party , that was worse :p


Yesterday , we actually wanted to dance , because last year we danced the " Down " song during Jamuan Pengawas . But we kinda forgotten the dance steps already so plan canceled :/ I miss the dance ! They used to come and practice at my house , good times :')


Thank you Ezrul for taking care of me yesterday , he's the one who can't see me going home alone by cab . Last year , when we went to Curve and left at 10 pm , he took a cab with me and sent me home , ahh so caring right :D


Am having Add Maths exam tomorrow , IM GONNA DIE !
And if I fail my add maths , I'm so gonna blame this certain someone who is distracting me >(
For now , challo , and good luck for Add Maths dear 4 Amanah :)

I finally found you

♥

And we decide that it's forever

Hello readers . I studied for 4 hours straight today , with Michelle . After studying , we talked , for quite long , and the things we talked about brought back memories and it broke my heart .



Mich ; Honestly la , you were so stupid . Didn't you cry after that thing happen ?
Estee ; Yes
Mich ; Then ?
Estee ; I dont know ?
Mich ; Didn't you see it was a sign of loneliness ? You were at the top of his list you know
Estee ; :'(
Mich ; Haih , it's okay la , nasi sudah menjadi bubur , that's all I'm gonna say . *hugs*



Yeah , I was a little stupid back then . Why didn't I see it ? And I hate myself for thinking about you before I go to sleep lately . How I wish I have a time machine and everything will be perfectly fine now .



Am having prefect's hi-tea tomorrow . But , I'm not excited , not at all . I just hope I'm gonna enjoy myself , Deepak said he's gonna pull me to the stage and dance with him , HAHAHA :P



I got 71 for my Maths , lowest mark I've ever got for Maths in my entire life so far . Damn , from last year 60/60 for Maths , and my marks been dropping and dropping and dropping -__- I have to work hard from now !



But I'm afraid when I hear stories
About a husband and wife
There's no happy endings
No Henry Lee
But you are the greatest thing about me


HAZIM ♥ :D

Smile, though your heart is aching

Hello people :) So BM and English wasnt that hard , but I screwed up my BM paper 2 , damn effin hard . I had no idea what peribahasa to put , but whatever , glad that is over already . I'm having Maths tomorrow , I must score an A for Maths , I don't want to make any history by getting a B for my Maths paper .


I went to KFC with Amirah Sufian just now . That girl is like my entertainer , always telling me jokes that made me laughed my ass off . And her face expression , aiyoo so funny . Sometimes , when she says something funny , she'll hit the table and laugh . But not many people find things she say funny , only I do , and they said I'm like the " kuat gelak " type :p Oh well , I love you bby girl :)


I had fun at tuition just now , I miss talking crap with Varmen . But he can't stop talking about Aiman to me , but Varmen's a nice guy , a very nice and annoying little bastard .


Varmen ; Eh for english what essay you wrote ?
Estee ; Uhh an unforgettable character
Mich ; Same as Estee
Varmen ; Ohh same la 3 of us . What you wrote ? I wrote the english teacher gave wan
Mich ; The dog ? I wrote the dog
Varmen ; I wrote the dog . Who will write the trees la right
Estee ; * reads a new message * OMG , RAUF WROTE ABOUT TREES
Mich ; Wtf ?


Then 3 of us started laughing . Before I went home ,


Varmen ; Ehh Yogis , Estee is going home laa , give her a hug man
Estee and Yogis ; Fuck Off Varmen !


Mich , Varmen and Yogis made my night , I was laughing to myself in the car thinking about the conversation we had just now ;p


Hmm , haih . I don't know whats going in my mind now , it's like I'm so confused , and I'm feeling so insecure now . Gahh , private blog , here I come !

Good luck please be on my side

Hello readers :D Mhmm , guess what ? My exam is tomorrow , TOMORROW . Dear finals , I'm gonna sacrifice my online time and my nap time for you , so please be nice to me , okay ? :)


My mum have been telling me to study for my SPM already , damn my finals haven't even started and she's talking about SPM already , shit . I target for atleast 5 A's this finals , I really hope I can get those 5 A's *cross fingers* .


To be honest , I'm really afraid for Chemistry , I mean like I know nothing about it , and Biology , what the eff is Malnutrition , Pore Protein and crap . Ekk I hate studying -.-


Moving on , I went to Grace and Alvin's birthday party yesterday . I seriously can't imagine what will happen if I go party with them when I'm 18 , if you know what I mean . Sadly , Wai Shaun wasnt there last night . Well I miss that boy so badly :(


I slept pretty early last night , around 11.30 . As usual , I put my phone under my pillow and set it on vibrate mode . Around 4 I woke up because Hazim texted me and the phone vibrated . I checked my phone and I have 3 more messages from my friends but I only woke up by Hazim's text , hehe something I find quite amazing :)


So yeah , I dont know what to write anymore , I guess I'll write more after my finals . For now , byee :)

That would be the only that I ever need

Hello readers , am so happy now :D Just got back Adam Lambert's concert , damn I was standing at the pit , he blew me a flying kiss , HEHEHE ;p And his bassist , so smexyyy ! Overall , I had fun , and his concert was awesome , I love you Adaaaam :D

I talked to Geetha today , one of my Physics tuition friend , but we barely talk . So I dont really socialize with my tuition mates , therefore she told me about the people in my tuition class , she was like ,

Geetha ; The guy infront of you is Farhan

Estee ; He got thaaat slang when he talks

Geetha ; Yeah he studied in US a few years ago , then he came back . When he talks right , I just feel like

Estee and Geetha ; TELLING HIM TO SHUT UP

Estee ; His voice so sexy right

Geetha ; I KNOWW

Yes this Farhan's voice , is very different . Me and Grace calls him " Sexy Voice " , HAHAHA , I'm serious , when he speaks , it gives you a tingling feeling :p

Oh anddd , Happy 2 Months Sayang , yeaaaay (:

I've been smiling to myself because of you , I love you baby ♥