Closer to the edge

Couldn't sleep last night , this song was on replay till I fell asleep , I swear I memorized the lyrics of this song already . Whenever I listen to this song , tears will start welling up in my eyes . And I wonder if this is just infatuation or love ?


As mentioned at the previous post , I met up with Jia Wei , Nicholas and Weng Han today . I made them wait for 45 minutes , but they didn't even blame me , sorry boys !
Laughed and talk about primary times . Weng Han got really shocked when he knew Jia Wei was my former "lover" . He said only if I go to SMK DJ , maybe I'll still be with Jia Wei , HAHAH , eww no :p


Estee ; Do you guys have like a girlfriend now ?
Jia Wei ; I'm single
Nicholas ; Single
Weng Han ; Single
Jia Wei ; I bet you're double
Estee ; Whaaat ?
Jia Wei ; We're single so you're double la
Estee ; Huh ? OHHHH
Jia Wei ; Omg why are you so slow ?


It's really nice seeing you guys , and Weng Han , why are you so sweet for a boy ? I'm touched :)

She had the most amazing smile

http://winwwc.wordpress.com/2011/01/25/sometimes-you-just-have-to-have-it-in-you/


I'm so touched by you , Winnie . And I really thank God for allowing you to be my opponent . Good luck girl :)


Anyway , am meeting up with Jia Wei , Weng Han and Nicholas tomorrow , omg been years since I last saw them boys . And I bumped into Kai Xin the other day , I havent see her for approximately 5 years already . I'm a happy girl now !


Oh and , I think I'm falling in love , oh no , not again .

Back to square one

We were really the kids in love back then .

MSSS Squash tournament in 7 hours time , I need all Your power .

Tell me what to say so you don't leave me

WH ; you're so talented, I can't even fry an egg :D
Estee ; umm i can't fry an egg too
WH ; haha, you should learn, useful for future :)
Estee ; nah my husband is gonna do everything
WH ; haha i'll only do the dishes, others you do :p
Estee ; umm I said my husband :p

Stupid boy ! (:

Anyway , Chun How is officially the cutest guy in asking a girl's number , haha , you made my night :D

I dare you to move

This morning , when mum sent me to school , the moon was still in sight , it was so bright and round , it was a full moon . I looked at it and smiled , only if you still remember what promise we made with the moon , I'll be happier .


I was home alone that day , been awhile since I have the whole house to myself . I got bored so I watched A Lot Like Love . Hehe , one of my favourite movie . I really wish I have A Walk To Remember's dvd or something , I never get bored watching that movie , it makes me believe that true love still exist .


" kau ni serious lucky oh dpt kwn kwn mcm tu :p "
AimanZ told me that . I have to agree with it because my friends are plain awesome .

Drive me around

Estee ; kau still sayang dia tk ?
*** ;yeah , aku sayang dia gila kau tahu tak
Estee ; dia ada text kau skrang ? mcm lately la
*** ; kau tahu tak , aku tanya ___ tadi , ___ cakap sebab aku macam tak care , aku tak text , aku tak call , and aku tak jumpa , padahal aku text dia banyak gila and dia tak reply , aku call tak angkat , and aku ajak keluar dia cakap busy , lepastu dia cakap aku tak care ? (Y)


I wonder if there's any guy sweeter than this boy above , hee love you bestpweeenn ! Stay strong okay , just another obstacle from God . OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GIVING ADVICE WHEN THE SAME SHIT IS HAPPENING TO ME , ngeeh watafak ? o.o

So in love when we're together

" Nk off la, nk main guitar. Huhuhu. Ciaoo, papehal text aku kalau kau nk nangis ke apa "


My friends are awesome people . I got my Squash strings fixed already , woohoo . Am going for Squash training and swimming tomorrow with them people , excited :D


Gah every nooks and corners I go , you're always in my mind . I really hope our love is meant to be , the kind of love that lasts forever . As much as it hurts because we're in this bad condition , I can't seem to stop loving you , I just really wish we'll be together till the end of time . I hope you know I need you here with me , no one needs you more than I need you . You're the meaning in my life , I love you Muhammad Hazim , I really do .

My heart's not free

Deepest apologies to people I scolded randomly these past few days . WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME ? Why am I like this ? It's like my emotions are all over the place . I can't even control my own temper , oh God this is bad .


Ever heard of the word 'promise' ? Yeah just another word people take it and use it easily like the word 'love' . I know I'm just seventeen and too young to talk about 'love' , but there's just this something I can't get out off my mind . I hate how I have to cry myself to sleep at night because I have to wait for your goodnight text or call when you don't even bother wishing me goodnight . Are you busy or you just don't love me anymore ? I really thought you were the one you know , I really want us to last longer than this . Everytime I see adorable and sweet couples around me I feel so jealous that I always question myself why won't I deserve those kind of love from you ? People do change ey ? The first month will always be full of laughter and the next few months will just be pure sadness .


" Never blame a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience. Both are essential in life. All are gods blessings. Example, i'm having a really really bad day, but before i sleep at night, i just think bout you and my problem all solved in just a second. I love you estee wong. Goodnight baby ♥ "


I don't want to talk to Vicky about my problems , I want to talk to you , and only you .
Uhm my squash tournament is in less than 1 week time , I really want to stay away from the bullshit and focus on the game .


And it's that hard for you to make time for me , your girlfriend , hmm ? Sigh , life .

Perhaps love

Hello there bloggie . Had lunch with my favourite girls at Delicious today . I missed them and I had fun with them , love you baby girls !


Went to KGNS and practiced Squash with Epul Aiman Afiq Rauf Hamimi Rahimi and Feisol . Nas came too , yeay ! I didn't had enough strength to hit the ball , so my Aiman told me this ,


Aiman ; Kau bayangkan bola ni nak bunuh Hazim , kau sayang dia kan , kau taknak dia mati kan , jadi kau pukul la kuat kuat . Macam aku , aku bayangkan bola ni nak bunuh ______ , so aku pukul la kuat kuat


What a way to give me support , haha thanks bro ! Tumpang Epul home , and took stupid pictures with Aiman at the backseat , it's at my Facebook ! :D


Anyway , one of my girlfriend told me this . It's like , she's having a boyfriend now , but the boyfriend doesn't like to text her , so she said she have to find some replacement for the texting part . HAHAHA , is this even legal ? Crazy girl &hears;


Oh and ,


Happy 5 Months Anniversary


I'm sorry I wasn't at home when you came to my house *bangs head to wall*
Without you in my arms , I feel an emptiness in my soul . I love you baby boo :-*

Finally 17 boy!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REMPIT !


Weng weng forever ! :D

Is this more than a crush ?

I feel so content all of a sudden , I think 2011 have been really nice to me , despite I cried for the first time this year after the phone talk with Hazim last night . I guessed I really miss him .

Enough for the emotional part . I called Vicky last night because I couldn't sleep . He answered the phone with " Yes baby ? " Haha such a sweet boy . We talked for ... I can't recall how long , but he managed to make me laugh when he reminded me memories of us in the cinema , oh God how I miss the times we hang out . It's kay , next Tuesday we're catching Paranormal Activity 2 together right ? :)

Squash MSSS tournament is on 24/1 helding at Bukit Bintang Boys School . Shit fuck bastard , freaking 11 days away ?! Am going for training at KGNS with them boys and Michelle . The only thing I like about tournaments are those hot squash players flashing infront of my eyes non-stop , making me go gaga >:B nah , I'm just joking ;p

Guess what ? I'm actually enjoying my tuition classes , like all of 'em . My tuition mates are really funny and they make the lesson more interesting . All of a sudden , I think God is finally treating me better . I have my baby girls whom is always there for me , them awesome boy friends who cares for me and my family always giving me courage and love .

" Tetek aku berdarah "
" Woi lenglui , teman aku gi sana please "

WHY ARE MY FRIENDS ALL SO KRAZIE ?

Am meeting Najihah Kaza tomorrow , can my life get any better ? :)
I'm a happy girl nao :D

All about him

I HONESTLY THINK MY SPECTACLES IS AWESOMEZZZZ ! I really love studying in the dark :s


" Baby I'm yours, and I'll be yours until the rivers all run dryyyy :) y u so sweet?! Damn, I'm lucky to have a friend as crazily awesome like you (; sleep tight. Goodnight, I love you little miss estee wong ♥ "


I think Aiman Zulkifar is so funny ! He asked me what will I do if I have a lot of money . He said he will make pillows of SNSD and hug them . I was like ... WHUT ? Haha you fani boi :p

How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

I miss the times when the first text I read when I wake up and last text before I sleep is always your text , just you , it's already more than enough . I hate how I don't feel happy receiving your text anymore , like I've lost interest in you , since I'm always the last in your list right ? Heh , boys .





Since I'm the Ketua Keceriaan for my class , I did something simple for the Duty Roaster and Carta Organisasi . Am quite satisfied with it but I know I can do better .


Disappointed my discipline teacher , AGAIN , why am I not surprised ?


11.1.11 , surprisingly good date but bad day for me . How was yours ?

Without words

HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY


to my best friend and my other best friend who happen to be together 1 month ago :D
I shall declare both of you as the sweetest and cutest couple in the universe :)





So due to my fever/cough/flu , I've been sleeping at 8pm-10pm for the past few days , very bloody early right ? I know . I guess I will start staying up late again starting .... maybe next week . I miss staying up and webcam-ing with them Alam Megah guys , they crack me up so bad .


Had lunch with Grace , Yng Yng , Sui Tseng , Yuen Shin and Ching Theng today . I've always love eating with them , their jokes are so lame and funny at the same time . I always feel like a happy girl around them :)


I miss my boyfriend , I honestly feel like hugging him so badly now :(

With your every kiss and every hug

" :DDD u look comel today! " 22:32:23 , 19-01-2008
" Morning cute gurl with pimple :p " 06:53:41 , 25-01-2008
" So, how'r you pretty gurl? " 10:55:42 , 24-02-2008

We were so close yet so far you know ? Will our memories stop haunting me already ?

Hello readers ,

Went to Sunway with Ami , Amalin , Epul , Afiq and Rauf . And guess what ? Nas came too , yeay :D we walked around and around and finally sat at Wendy's to have a little talk . It's nice to know Nas' still surviving at his school , good luck braah !

Nothing much to say but this message from this stupid friend of mine made me laugh

" Btw, aku ckp dkt ******* aku bf kau . Huahuahua "

Stupid boy ♥

How sweet it is to be loved by you

Hello there dear readers . Tomorrow it's already the fifth day of school , wow , I actually enjoyed this week of school . Skipped the third day of school because I had a fever and terrible cough .


Am suppose to meet up with Weng Han and Jia Wei today , but because I'm still not feeling well , I told them next week instead . I texted Jia Wei , the first time in 4 years . Weird huh , we never texted each other for 4 years already yet we still have each other's number .


Jia Wei ; I was actually looking forward to meeting up with you. :/
Estee ; Aww really ? :')
Jia Wei ; Yeah, I was. I admit I missed you lah really. Plus we didn't really talk for the past 4 years till now. :/


Something I find really sweet ! Jia Wei used to be my "boyfriend" during primary school . Funny old times ! Looking forward to see you and Weng Han .


So I studied with Mich , Rashidatul and Izzati instead , and had dinner with them . Guess what ? Rashidatul's caller ringtone is Dynamite & Like a G6 . Rashidatul is a very shy and polite girl , the type of girl who listens to soft music , but turned out her ringtone is something different from her , function la Shitul niii ♥


Nas been away for 1 week already , the class been very very extremely quiet . I actually miss his voice , that annoying voice that made me scream " DIAM LAH " in his face everytime . Well , I miss him , I miss him a lot . Take care boy , hope you're doing okay :(


A little note to this someone out there ; I'm so tired of your bullshit(s) already , you only come to me when you need something right ? Bloody boy who doesn't knows how to appreciate . Sorry to say , but you've crossed the line and Imma show no mercy to you anymore .


Okay sesi melepaskan geram is over , peace yaw :-D

You're there for me

" Happy new year Mrs hazim, I love you :) "
My Fara Shafrina is just too awesome , I love you more ♥

Made a wish , I can dream

I think Najihah Kaza is on her way to Negeri Sembilan already . We did a simple farewell party for dear Nad yesterday , and the strong girl actually teared , haha , that was something to laugh about ;p


I don't have to tell you how much you mean to me because I know you know that you are more than precious to me . Take care of yourself okay ? Love you long time bestfriend .


School is starting in less than 24 hours . I . AM . SO . LAZY . TO . GO . BACK . TO . SCHOOL .
And I have to lead the school , state , national anthem and the pledge tomorrow morning at the assembly . God bless me man . Please don't make my " raising-the-wrong-hand " and "forgetting-the-sequence-of-the-pledge " mistakeS happen again .


I can't believe I'm 17 already , in a blink of an eye , I'm gonna be maybe 24 already . Haha , okay sorry for the exaggerate . How time flies huh ? The Malaysian Certificate of Education is in 11 months . Oh noo , I hate all this " counting-down-to-exam " thing . Everytime I hear or see the word " SPM " , my heart literally beats faster , urgh .


Am gonna be a senior this year . I just hope nobody calls me " Kak Estee " or something like that , I feel so damn old okay ? I don't really like all the " senior-junior " thing , I mean like , we're all humans , why can't we be the same rather than having all this pangkat and gelaran ? Well I'm just saying , no hard feelings .


I really hope I won't sleep at school during classes anymore , PLEASE LA ESTEE PLEASE , focus during your lessons can or not ? -__- I always have this habit of sleeping in class . I really need to work hard from now . So I'm sorry my dear 83 followers if I don't update my blog that frequent anymore .


Happy Schooling everyone , no more sleeping late already :(

I wont sleep tonight

For 31st December ,


HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMAD IQBAL :)

Don't do anymore stupid stuffs okay ? God knows how much I love you and how much I treasure this friendship we share . Stop saying " fuck you " to me k ? Study hard future pilot and fly me around :) and yes , like you said , when you need me , no matter happy or sad , laughing or crying on the phone , I'm always there , and I will still and always be there for you , alright ? :)


Went to Coliseum for lunch today . And bumped into Marvin Yong Yee Mun . PSDFGFDNRTGD I MISS YOU SO BAD :( When am I gonna see you again ? >:(


Oh I mentioned about the competiton I entered at the previous posts right ? Ngeeh didn't get to win the amplifier . 1st runner up instead . But I have 1630 likes , so I thank each and everyone of you who liked and help me promoted . To be honest , through this competition , I saw who my real friends are , who are the ones who's willing to help me . I don't have to mention your name here because you know who you are , thank you so much , your help is very appreciated .


Oh and , Aiman login my Facebook account to spread for me because I have to go out during the afternoon . So he texted me and I saw a sudden surge at the likes , I asked why and he said he told a big amount of my friends to spread . When I login back my account , I saw him literally flirting with my guy friends , aiyomaa ! But it was very funny , he went really " manje " with them , haha ;p


And 1/1/11 ,


HAPPY NEW YEAR ERRBODY :D

2010 was disappointing and torturing with those continuos heartbreaks . But I believe that what has happened last year shall always stay on last year only , like the saying goes , ‘Lightning never strikes twice .’ What has happened always happens for a reason , we just have to live and learn , right ? :)


Count downed with Afiq , Ami and Weng Han . Can't wait for Thursday as I'll be going out with Weng Han and Jia Wei , weee :D


I decided not to make anymore new year's resolution because I never , ever follow them . So I should just follow the flow and be a good girl this year :) Deepest apologies for those who wished me through my cell , I have no credit to reply :/


Till then , may 2011 bring all of us good memories , prosperity and let us all have a good year ahead :)