Look at the moon
Hello there .
It's 2.04 am now , I miss blogging in the middle of the night . Wow , trials is in 20 days , I can't even imagine myself sitting for trials . Not to forget , the real major exam , SPM is in NINE freaking TY days .
Went to Amalin's house yesterday . Before Epul came , I had a heart-to-heart talk with her , felt way better after that . Don't you think it's just nice to have a friend to talk to when you're not feeling happy ? We talked and she made me realise that I'm actually seventeen already , but why do I still act like a kid ? Pfft , I can't even fry an egg .
It's August already , how did 2011 pass by so fast ? Where did the time went ? And what have I been doing this whole year ? Wished I spent my time wisely .
Moving on to my private life , I've decided to built a strong and tall wall around my heart . I just want to focus on my studies at the moment . Can't deny that I still have strong feelings towards Hazim , but I won't let it affect my studies , I promise . And I hope the feelings will fade as soon as possible , because it's really no fun loving someone who doesn't love you back .
The next guy that is willing to break this tough wall I've built will be worth the wait , I'm sure he will not disappoint me .
Do you still think about me when you take a glance at the moon ? Well , I hope you do .
I can't explain
Scratch everything above because we both are not together anymore .
So yeah , Hazim called it off yesterday . I guess I expected it , but I never knew it would hurt this much . Cried for the whole night and I think I'm better now .
Though a part of me will always love him , but this break up will be better for both of us since we're going nowhere . It'll still ache me when I think back of our times together and passing the road we use to pass , but time heals everything , so I'll just have to wait .
I'll definitely miss your random goodnight texts and how you hold me in your arms , take care of yourself for me okay ?
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