Can't believe SPM is 250 days away . Read back my previous post and gave myself a tight slap in the face for being so immature and ... stupid . I hate how I used to 'cling' to my boyfriend(s) , ex-boyfriend(s) I mean , it's like I keep depending on them , and I always think that " I can't live without them " , " they're everything " , that kind of bullshit . STUPID STUPID STUPID .
I read Biology before I hit the sack last night , as I was trying to sleep , I told myself that this year , I really have to study hard , I want to gain good results and study abroad , make my parents proud and be successful in the years to come . Therefore , I'm going to put 'love' aside . No , I'm not saying I'm going to stop loving my boyfriend . It's just like , I don't want to spend time going all flabbergasted just because he seldom contact me and all .
I feel like I've grown up , compared to last time , I would cry myself to sleep , cry at school because of all those silly little jealousy and stuffs . But I guess as long as he still loves me , and I still love him , I'm totally fine with it :)
So yes , I really hope I can do it . Rather than wasting time crying , I would use it to study and do more stuffs that will benefit my life .
I love you sayang , like I've promised , always have , and forever will . Sorry I'm not always there for you but please know that since day 1 I told you I love you , I never have the thought of leaving you .
Night readers , and have a lovely day :)
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