I'm just really confused right now

Mich ; Im gona sleep now, then wake up at 4 then do a chemistry crash course ;) triple C master plan B) chiow ♥
Estee ; Wtf ? Asshole :p sweet dreams ! MUAAAH :-* <-- goodnight kiss :)


Thank you bby girl for sending me a goodnight message every night to make sure that I'll be able to sleep , love you :)


Mich and Reeta came over . We talked with each other for like 6 hours , about everything and anything . And yeah , I'm actually kinda confused right now , wait , I am VERY CONFUSE , I don't know if I should follow their advice or not . They think that I should " B.U. " with youknowwho . But ... Haih :'(


We talked about last year , and I miss the times after PMR :(
Last year , me , Mich and Mas used to be like the " twins " and also the " 1 Malaysia " gang , when AimanZ bully anyone of us , the other two will belasah AimanZ .


I have Physics 3 and Chemistry 3 paper left . For History paper 1 , I got 30/40 , which is quite satisfying , and 68 for BM , damn everyone else got like 70 and above , I feel so left out now >:(


Can't wait for exams to be over , and I'll have all the time in the world to watch my korean dramas and admiring my sexy korean boyfriend(s) . Hehe , thats all for now , BYE :D

If you don't love me let me go

Hello readers , I had a great time at Prefect's Hi-Tea yesterday . Went to Elton's house at around 12.30 pm . Then Elton's father sent me , Elton , Hambali and Wai Shaun to Crystal Crown Hotel . And the fun begins :D


Tasha arrived around 2 . I went to the hotel lobby to pick her . When I saw her , I run to her with my 3 inch heels and hugged her so tightly , omg I miss you girl ! ♥


We were talking and laughing non - stop with Ezrul , Deepak , Taufique , Hafiz and all . The food was okay , I ate a lot because I kept reminding myself that I paid RM 65 for this . Then there's this game , they said you have to make up a group of 3 people , and it's like a 1 Malaysia thing . So me , Kughen and Hafiz teamed up . Haha , it was kinda awkward because there's 5 group and only our group are from mixed gender . Anyway , they gave us 4 pieces of white cloth , and we have to use those white cloth to design a costume kind of thing . I was the model , and Hafiz and Kughen made me a " Superwoman nak kahwin pakai tudung " . Omg I look horrible when I'm in a "tudung" ! But I had fun , nice job Kughen and Hafiz :D


We took a lot of pictures yesterday , yay :D Then I followed Ezrul home . While waiting for his dad to come , we said goodbye and hugged everyone , it felt good , we were like a big family (: When Ezrul's dad came , his brother came along too . So me , Deepak , Taufique and Ezrul had to sit behind , and it's a Kancil . Torture man , especially when it comes to a turn , everyone will just push themselves to the right or left . But that wasnt that bad , I remembered when I was form 2 , 8 of us were in one car to Tasha's birthday party , that was worse :p


Yesterday , we actually wanted to dance , because last year we danced the " Down " song during Jamuan Pengawas . But we kinda forgotten the dance steps already so plan canceled :/ I miss the dance ! They used to come and practice at my house , good times :')


Thank you Ezrul for taking care of me yesterday , he's the one who can't see me going home alone by cab . Last year , when we went to Curve and left at 10 pm , he took a cab with me and sent me home , ahh so caring right :D


Am having Add Maths exam tomorrow , IM GONNA DIE !
And if I fail my add maths , I'm so gonna blame this certain someone who is distracting me >(
For now , challo , and good luck for Add Maths dear 4 Amanah :)

I finally found you

♥

And we decide that it's forever

Hello readers . I studied for 4 hours straight today , with Michelle . After studying , we talked , for quite long , and the things we talked about brought back memories and it broke my heart .



Mich ; Honestly la , you were so stupid . Didn't you cry after that thing happen ?
Estee ; Yes
Mich ; Then ?
Estee ; I dont know ?
Mich ; Didn't you see it was a sign of loneliness ? You were at the top of his list you know
Estee ; :'(
Mich ; Haih , it's okay la , nasi sudah menjadi bubur , that's all I'm gonna say . *hugs*



Yeah , I was a little stupid back then . Why didn't I see it ? And I hate myself for thinking about you before I go to sleep lately . How I wish I have a time machine and everything will be perfectly fine now .



Am having prefect's hi-tea tomorrow . But , I'm not excited , not at all . I just hope I'm gonna enjoy myself , Deepak said he's gonna pull me to the stage and dance with him , HAHAHA :P



I got 71 for my Maths , lowest mark I've ever got for Maths in my entire life so far . Damn , from last year 60/60 for Maths , and my marks been dropping and dropping and dropping -__- I have to work hard from now !



But I'm afraid when I hear stories
About a husband and wife
There's no happy endings
No Henry Lee
But you are the greatest thing about me


HAZIM ♥ :D

Smile, though your heart is aching

Hello people :) So BM and English wasnt that hard , but I screwed up my BM paper 2 , damn effin hard . I had no idea what peribahasa to put , but whatever , glad that is over already . I'm having Maths tomorrow , I must score an A for Maths , I don't want to make any history by getting a B for my Maths paper .


I went to KFC with Amirah Sufian just now . That girl is like my entertainer , always telling me jokes that made me laughed my ass off . And her face expression , aiyoo so funny . Sometimes , when she says something funny , she'll hit the table and laugh . But not many people find things she say funny , only I do , and they said I'm like the " kuat gelak " type :p Oh well , I love you bby girl :)


I had fun at tuition just now , I miss talking crap with Varmen . But he can't stop talking about Aiman to me , but Varmen's a nice guy , a very nice and annoying little bastard .


Varmen ; Eh for english what essay you wrote ?
Estee ; Uhh an unforgettable character
Mich ; Same as Estee
Varmen ; Ohh same la 3 of us . What you wrote ? I wrote the english teacher gave wan
Mich ; The dog ? I wrote the dog
Varmen ; I wrote the dog . Who will write the trees la right
Estee ; * reads a new message * OMG , RAUF WROTE ABOUT TREES
Mich ; Wtf ?


Then 3 of us started laughing . Before I went home ,


Varmen ; Ehh Yogis , Estee is going home laa , give her a hug man
Estee and Yogis ; Fuck Off Varmen !


Mich , Varmen and Yogis made my night , I was laughing to myself in the car thinking about the conversation we had just now ;p


Hmm , haih . I don't know whats going in my mind now , it's like I'm so confused , and I'm feeling so insecure now . Gahh , private blog , here I come !

Good luck please be on my side

Hello readers :D Mhmm , guess what ? My exam is tomorrow , TOMORROW . Dear finals , I'm gonna sacrifice my online time and my nap time for you , so please be nice to me , okay ? :)


My mum have been telling me to study for my SPM already , damn my finals haven't even started and she's talking about SPM already , shit . I target for atleast 5 A's this finals , I really hope I can get those 5 A's *cross fingers* .


To be honest , I'm really afraid for Chemistry , I mean like I know nothing about it , and Biology , what the eff is Malnutrition , Pore Protein and crap . Ekk I hate studying -.-


Moving on , I went to Grace and Alvin's birthday party yesterday . I seriously can't imagine what will happen if I go party with them when I'm 18 , if you know what I mean . Sadly , Wai Shaun wasnt there last night . Well I miss that boy so badly :(


I slept pretty early last night , around 11.30 . As usual , I put my phone under my pillow and set it on vibrate mode . Around 4 I woke up because Hazim texted me and the phone vibrated . I checked my phone and I have 3 more messages from my friends but I only woke up by Hazim's text , hehe something I find quite amazing :)


So yeah , I dont know what to write anymore , I guess I'll write more after my finals . For now , byee :)

That would be the only that I ever need

Hello readers , am so happy now :D Just got back Adam Lambert's concert , damn I was standing at the pit , he blew me a flying kiss , HEHEHE ;p And his bassist , so smexyyy ! Overall , I had fun , and his concert was awesome , I love you Adaaaam :D

I talked to Geetha today , one of my Physics tuition friend , but we barely talk . So I dont really socialize with my tuition mates , therefore she told me about the people in my tuition class , she was like ,

Geetha ; The guy infront of you is Farhan

Estee ; He got thaaat slang when he talks

Geetha ; Yeah he studied in US a few years ago , then he came back . When he talks right , I just feel like

Estee and Geetha ; TELLING HIM TO SHUT UP

Estee ; His voice so sexy right

Geetha ; I KNOWW

Yes this Farhan's voice , is very different . Me and Grace calls him " Sexy Voice " , HAHAHA , I'm serious , when he speaks , it gives you a tingling feeling :p

Oh anddd , Happy 2 Months Sayang , yeaaaay (:

I've been smiling to myself because of you , I love you baby ♥

No stress

As you can see , this post is dedicated to ...


DEEPAK NAIR

The brother , singing partner , crapping partner , horny teacher ;p , model , bestfriend , dance partner , senior , and the always there for me ,

Happy Birthday :D

Thanks for being there whenever I need a shoulder to cry on , and for cursing the person who bullies me , not a good thing , but whatever :p Good luck for your SPM , I know you can do it . I love you Deepak ;)

If I had you

Hey there readers . I'm so sleepy right now . I went on Skype last night and video called with Yee Juinn . He played the piano , omg it was so nice . I think he learns how to play the piano all by himself , bravo bravo . Around 1.30am Hazim called , then my sim card had some problems , I can't send any SMS and call anyone , ngeek ! But it was still nice hearing his voice before I go to bed , hee (:

Woke up at 5.45 this morning , was too lazy to shower . Then Ihsan picked me , my sister and Hafiz up , and we went for a photoshoot :D Haha , we had fun . Met up with Deepak . Then we saw Taufique and Imran . Imran looked so ... tough with his singlet . Went to McD after the photoshoot . Hafiz and Deepak thinks my mum is awesome , Mich and Reeta thinks so too , hehe :D

We had this stupid conversation on ,

Ihsan ; Estee just eat chicken neck , papaya and drink soya for the next two months

Deepak ; Then you'll have big TATA'S , and you'll be the hottest chick in school

Deepak , Hafiz and Ihsan's mind is somehow too dirty at times , they taught me all the horny horny stuffs today , bodoh gilaaa :p But I love you people , thank you for making me happy :D

Walked to Epul's house after McD . Lepak for awhile , then walked to school with Epul , Rauf and AimanZ . We had some Interact meeting , boooooringggg ~ After the meeting , Mich and Reeta came to my house . Then later on , Ami , Fara and Shitul came . We studied Add Maths , just the first two chapters in 4 hours -__- I realized I've forgotten so much about Add Maths :O

" Heee hazim is so lucky " A friend of mine told me that and it put a smile on my face , hehe :)

Am gonna study Physics now , keep safe readers ;)

Kiss the day goodbye

Hello there :B I had an awesome day yesterday , the day spent with four fantastic people ; Epul , Nas , Afiq , Rauf . I wasn't really happy yesterday due to some reasons , but 4 of them managed to put a smile on my face , thank you korg , sayang sume :D

I have to go to school this Friday because we have to discuss about our Installation Day . And I think I'm the MC ( again ) . But this time , I get to choose my partner . I'm still wondering who I want it to be , but the first name that came to my mind is AimanZ , so I guess I'll just pick him :p

Am so pissed right now . Well not pissed but , I don't know , sad and disappointed I guess . It's like , some people out there just like to take advantage of me , like fuck , I'm not some kind of toy okay , I have feelings too . When I don't say it doesn't mean I don't care . I just want to take care of your feelings , so why can't you do the same for me ? Mehh , I guess I just don't have luck in relationships .

I'm reading " The Last Song " now . Seriously , Will Blakelee IS THE SWEETEST GUY ON EARTH ♥ ! I guess that's it for now , I'm so lazy to type nowadays , byee :)

" You're my best guy friend , ever "
" You're my best girl friend "
" Ever ? "
" Ever . "


:)

Muhammad Hazim

You're the best boyfriend , ever ♥ :)

Tell me something good

:)